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AS above, so below

The college will teach you to stay where you're sitting
Like the bar's gonna teach you how not to treat women
Church is the last place I'd go get forgiven
The fun things in life are forbidden

Rich blonde girls drink lattes and take trips to countries
For photos of orphans to show everybody
You don't need salvation if you've got enough money
So I'll start saving my pennies honey

Now you know, you don't have to think everything that you're told
As above, so below

The liquor's no good for the ease of your mind
But the good stuff's been outlawed since '75
Let's meet north of Atlanta sometime later tonight
Cmon babe lets go get high

The mushrooms might help cure your brain of depression
One less corrupt doctor living in a mansion
Red blooded Jesus on the cross for expansion
Of blue collar white man opression

Now you know, you don't have to think everything that you're told
As above, so below

Can't talk to your dad about orientation
The porno's no place for sex education
You can't talk to your wife about mastrubation
So you visit some bitch on vacation

My black friend got shot for running a stop sign
When he reached for his insurance the cop killed him outright
That asshole from Stanford got released 'round the same time
It would make any decent man cry

Now you know, you don't have to think everything that you're told
As above, so below

The ballad of harry harlow

The past and the future are swirling around in my head
If belief is emotion and trust is a choice we're all dead
I don't know how we'll fight world war three miss president
but the fourth will be with sticks and stones if we're not blown to bits

Harry Harlow that fucker put me and my dog in a cage
He said that you must die alone if you want to be great
But there's no amount of genius that I wouldn't trade
I think love might be greater than knowledge I won't isolate

Edward and I dropped some acid and swam up the stars
I saw the sun split the ocean and I didn't care
Who all was watching me stumble cause god met me there
Said son folks that have unopened minds are more truly impaired

If women are unequal objects built only for sex
Who cares if the baby is starving please cover your breasts
Don said he's famous enough to reach under her dress
Decency died on the cross next to Jesus I guess

Attempted redemption

(some extra scribbles for Rosanna, written on the one year mark)

The years spin lazily long
Every time I get to sing this song
It grows another flower on your grave
I still forget that you are gone
Fall asleep with the tv on
Silence always seems to show your face
God said son you can't prolong
Your crooked sense of what is right and wrong
Maybe he is in a better place
Though brokenness can make you strong
Brokenness is not where you belong
For all your lonely days

Oh, honey now I know
With all the beauty lost that love is worth it
Pull whoever you can close
Though every hand you hold you'll have to forfeit
Honey you're the reason love is worth it

Whale Song

All the fish in the deep blue sea
A big gray whale whistling songs to me
If love is a current that runs underneath
Honey you're just an ocean breeze

A single drop of rain as it falls from the sky
Every golden tear in your sweet silver eyes
If love is a kiss honey I'm a goodbye
And all the flowers that I brought you will die

Every star that is floating through space
The freckle constellations on your heavenly face
If time isn't real I would give you my days
But it is; So it's a waste

A neon grain of sand on a fluorescent beach
A crab digging holes by the base of a palm tree
She takes my hand and I start to see
That the waves break like fallen leaves
And better timing is all we need

Unable

The sun sets slowly on the lake like your head resting on my shoulder
It's not that we were a mistake I just can't love you when I'm older
The moonlight glowing on your face as we inch a little closer
And the longer that I fake it, the truth is that much colder

I didn't want to lose you, I lost myself
I didn't want to lose you, I lost myself
I didn't want to lose you

In the morning when you wake I'll already be gone
I don't intend to drive home safe, I probably shouldn't drive at all
The neighbors find me the next day passed out in the lawn
Please don't ask me if I make it, like it matters to you at all

I didn't want to lose you, I lost myself
I didn't want to lose you, I lost myself
I didn't want to lose you

I forgive you for the things that you have done
And all the people that you're unable to love
Only want to help you bear the burden you've become
Go easy on yourself

I didn't want to lose you, I lost myself
I didn't want to lose you, I lost myself
I didn't want to lose you

Ghost II

I'm not gonna hurt you
Or cry in your
Insensibly argue
Slam the door to your car
I only get under your skin
Eager to excavate what lies within

The habits of our bedroom
Your retrograde charm
One flesh becomes two
When you harbor your guard
Leave the lights on when we're alone
Why don't we keep the front door closed

Cause if finding you means that
I lose whats important to me
I guess that I'm giving up on
The man I spent sleepless nights
Desperately hoping to be
I only wanted to dream
Someday to die in peace

I'm not gonna use you
As some pale overdose
In sunlight you're see-through
But the moon is your ghost
Shimmering reflections on your teeth
Counterfeit stars that we both strained to see

So if finding you means that
I lose whats important to me
I guess that I'm giving up on
The man I spent sleepless nights
Desperately trying to be
I only wanted to dream
Someday to die in peace

This comfort we cling to
Premonitions unknown
It's not that I love you
I just hate me alone

So if leaving you means that
I've lost touch with what I believe
Who cares if I've given up on
The man that could only
Exist in your naivety
I only wanted to dream
Someday to die in peace

Rosanna

The dandelion got undressed
Before I could make a wish
We get naked and we don't know why
The waterfall she gets no rest,
I poured all the love I had to give
Not a single drop with which to cry
The preacher told me I'd be blessed,
"Pick a woman and go live
In the countryside"
But when I saw Rosanna's head
I regretted all the innocence
She will lose the day I die

Oh, Honey I don't know
With all the beauty lost if love is worth it
Pull whoever you can close
Every hand you hold you'll have to forfeit

The wind still blowing through the trees
In the neighborhood we scraped our knees
The blood of brotherhood dried on the wall
We walked ten miles on the beach
Cigarette stained, silhouetted dreams
Crumbling like a sandcastle
The preacher begged us not to grieve
Said, "God is watching over everything"
At the funeral
I did my damndest to believe
Our lovely Joseph left so suddenly
For any reason at all

Oh, Honey I don't know
With all the beauty lost if love is worth it
Pull whoever you can close
Every hand you hold you'll have to forfeit
I don't really know if love is worth it

The Hollow in Retrospect

They told me drink till she's pretty enough
Drink until she's the wine on your tongue
Kiss to forget, sleep when you're dead
Love while you're young and it matters

They told me breathe her like second-hand smoke
Let her stain your hands and seep in your clothes
Dance to remind yourself that you're dying
And honey that I'm no different

Cause we're always waiting to kiss till the sun's down
Never looking into each other's eyes
If you are the Hollow, then I'll be an echoing sound
If you're darkness I'm drawn to the night

Are we nothing but swings in a park
Just kids hooking up in the dark
Hiding from war, we claim to fight for
One another

You're like fireflies trapped in a jar
You're a prison without any bars
You make me alone, You're soft like a stone
Hitting the water

Cause we're always waiting to kiss till the sun's down
Never looking into each other's eyes
If you are the Hollow, then I'll be an echoing sound
If you're darkness I'm drawn to the night

I am still just as empty tonight
I was fucking you so you would not ask me why
I'm so sad, if I still love you back
Darling I'm sorry

That we always waited to kiss until sundown
I could never look straight in your eyes
You are the Hollow, but now I write echoless songs
You're the darkness where I lost the light

 


GOD THE METEOROLOGIST (SISTER V)

Anticipating you to call
And say what's going wrong
How is the weather? 
What's got into mother,
Meteorologist god

Gives us grace and lucky stars
To beg upon
Drinking together
Missing our brother
Maybe both the bad and good die young

Sleeping ocean still as glass
Let your mind relax
What makes the world turn? 
Why did he leave her?
It's economical as

People long for what they lack
Till their hearts bleed black
Affection deferred
Is not always returned
Be careful who you let yourself love back


THE RHINE

Somewhere over the Rhine
I saw her passing the time
Picking blackberries on the vine

And from the top of that hill
I could see the city lights standing still
Where all her blackberry blood was spilled

Into the river, out to the sea
Her heart delivered the poison to me

Hours pass by the chime
Cathedrals keep us in line
For the altar where her blood runs red wine

Jesus was getting his fill at the party
Girls and god's will
Throwing all of Simon's dollar bills

Into the river, up on the cross
Take from the giver, count it all loss

My brother having a beer
And driving the car just like everyone feared
When the tire hit the curb and in the rearview the guard-rail disappeared

Into the river, deep in the Rhine
Oh how he shivered, the day that he died

(it haunts me that you never heard this song)

Köln

Smooth the bricks under her feet
The curl of her hair on the curve of her cheek
Kneeling she looks up at me
The old, dark cathedral towering over the street
All we can smell and all we can see
Every cafe on the long, winding street
Suddenly all of the children will sing
An afternoon song for the sky opening
We're all watching

Gray, part into blue
Stained window-glass hues
Old becomes new
Follow me through
The back-alley road
Drink the unknown
Honey we're home
You and me lost in the heart of Köln

We'll attend every ballet
I'll take her hand and we'll dance to the train
Our rooftop flat overlooking the bay
All of our friends in their sailboats will wave
We'll close the window as it starts to rain
Listen to water-drops tapping the pane
The sun will set soon and the star-lit champagne
Until the morning will keep us awake
We're both watching

Gray, part into blue
Stained window-glass hues
Old becomes new
Follow me through
The back-alley road
Drink the unknown
Honey we're home
You and me lost in the heart of Köln

Berlin

She is blue sky I'm the gray
Have the night but leave the day
She the feather I the weight
If these iron hands she takes
Her to go and I to stay
I to steady she to shake

She and I on new year's eve
Throwing bottles at the street
Fireworks below our feet
Kiss until we couldn't breathe
Sinking down under the sheets
She the mountain, I the Sea

Every cigarette I lit
The things I thought, but never did
Every lie and every sin
The things I love about Berlin
Everyone I can't forgive
I to wander she to live

Oh, she to live


 

California Skin

I got a girl with dandelion eyes
Every time she blinks it sends us flying
Me and my girl got a different sense of time
She's the only thing that makes me scared to die

I got a girl with California skin
The way she breathes reminds me of the ocean
I got a girl who makes me want to sin
I'm quick to anger, she's quicker to forgive

Santa Monica, and that pacific highway west
Every curve and every word in her pretty little head
The redwood forest in her eyes a beauty so complex
The coastal hues of those baby blues that never quite find rest

I got a girl who's seen a lot of pain
I know that god will give and god will take
But lord if you could please don't let her go away
She's the only thing that makes me want to pray

 

Crescent City

When I'm in the city she's back at home and I know
Though the lights are so pretty, and the warm fire glows, the letters I wrote
Make her feel alone, like feather to stone when all she needs is some flesh and bone
Let's drive to the coast, and buy different clothes
We'll just wander aimless down the street and hold each other close

Inside the crescent moon, where starlight starts to bloom and you feel it
If love's the final wound, we're heading for the tomb again
A beautiful end

While she's in the mountain, I'm back at home and I know
There isn't a sound, there isn't a tone I could use on the phone
To make her less alone, like feather to stone when all she needs is some flesh and bone
Let's move back to Rome, leave all we know
We'll just wander aimless down the street and hold each other close

Inside the crescent moon, where starlight starts to bloom and you feel it
If love's the final wound, we're heading for the tomb again
A beautiful end

 

Narcotics 

Kissing her feels like a chore
But when we're not I get the sense that she'd bored
Is this what our bodies are for? 
I'm too cold to keep anyone warm
She couldn't hold me close enough

Cause when we're making love I feel lonelier
When she's crying "sorry" I'm angrier
This beautiful world is a big fucking blur
Of hurting and getting hurt

Kissing her feels like a sin
And I've been so quick to forgive
But if god is a bottomless pit
Grace just excuses our shit
She couldn't hold me long enough


Cause when we're making love I feel lonelier
When she's crying "sorry" I'm angrier
This beautiful world is a big fucking blur
Of hurting and getting hurt

When she calls me "patience" I want to rush
The preacher says "gentle", I want to cuss
All these narcotics I can't feel a buzz
Every damn thing that I love, is just something I'll have to give up

 

Bleeding Out Slow

i don't really care about heR pretty blue eyes and long, blonde hair
her smile and the summer seA, swept the summer out from under me
inside my chest right where my heart onCe bled her name there's nothing there
she said I made her lonely and togetHer I was half the man i could be
if i'm honest with myself i don't undErstand

the pain of Love
the empty hole
that's left when someone suddenly decides to go
the tears don't come
the silence groans
like every word unsaid is a wounded animal
and it bleeds out slow

i can't really tell if i miss her or just the way her fingers felt
her quiet words october breeze, breathed that frigid winter into me
inside my head right where my brain once dreamt of her there's someone else
she told me she was sorry and she prayed to god i'd understand
but if god is just a cop-out i don't think i'm interested

the pain of Love
the empty hole
that's left when someone suddenly decides to go
the tears don't come
the silence groans
like every word unsaid is a wounded animal
and it bleeds out slow

i'll build a wall so tall
that can keep all my feelings in, and keep you out

Postcard from rome

She's in a window seat sitting alone
Her suitcase is spilling out untaken photos
Of European architecture, an apartment on the coast
She's on an airplane heading to Rome
She's on an airplane sitting alone

So baby be safe, baby be smart
The world's not so pretty a place after dark
Honey I'd hold you so tight in my arms
But you're oceans away, and I'm home working hard
So baby be safe, baby be smart

Take pictures of people and pictures of trees
Try every corner coffee shop on every busy street
Be the modern Napoleon take all of Italy
But every so often think a little of me
I'm probably wide awake worried bout you out on the street

So baby go free, and baby have fun
The world is a beautiful place when you're young
I'll be here waiting when your wandering's done
If you promise me that we'll still be in love
Baby go free, baby have fun

She's in a window seat sitting alone
Her heart is heavy; her suitcase is full
Of different culture and brand new friends
A postcard from Rome
She's in a window seat crying alone
She's in a window seat heading back home

So baby I'm sorry, baby I'm sure
The world was a wonderful place where you were
You wish you'd stayed longer the trip was a blur
When your homesick for elsewhere let me be the cure
I need you my love, I need you my friend
So you're taking me with you when you leave here again

 

Drifter (In loving memory)

I miss you so god-damn much. 

With every wave a little more
The ocean tirelessly swallows up the shore
When you head out on your own
Like the wind circles the world keep coming home

Like a star across the sky
As a forest swiftly kindled by a fire
Hear the thunder as it comes and goes
Like the passing of a storm

Keep coming home, no matter where life takes you
If you throw everything you have to chance
Please know, we are all waiting for your return
Oh, Drifter

Like a train that's heading west
Through those plains and cities never stop unless
You grow weary, though heaven knows you wont
When you hear the whistle blow, keep coming home

And when you reach the golden coast
You taste the salty air, and feel your soul
Like a cancer that's hollowing your bones
When your wandering takes its toll

Keep coming home, no matter where life takes you
If you throw everything you have to chance
Please know, we are all waiting for your return
Oh, Drifter

My dear brother please don't cry
When death takes you like a deer in the headlights
When there's no fields left to roam
You regret the life you chose

Keep coming home, no matter where life takes you
If you throw everything you have to chance
Please know, we are all waiting for your return
Oh, Drifter

// Fill your mouth with rocks when you are talking to the ocean
Paint a redwood ring around the moon
Every tiny star, to somewhere else is an explosion
You're crying in your oldest brother's room

I'm so sorry honey that when you needed me to pray
I couldn't find the words to say it's just that I don't think he's up there listening

Flowers fill your mind when you are bending over backwards
Trying to collect a skipping stone
Every passing stranger has some love that they are after
Sometimes I only feel that love when I'm alone

God now if you're up there, why did his heart stop for no reason? 
Couldn't you have stopped the bleeding? 
If we're all just being used, what's the point of still believing? //
 

Drifter II

You missed so much while you were gone
The leaves have changed, and so have I
While you were singing strangers songs
The world kept spinning softly by

Your baby sister turned eighteen
She'll pack her things and move away
The dog got shaky in the knees
Soon I'll join him in the grave

Cause time it stops for no man
So be careful where you go
Love as well as you can
While you still have somewhere to call your home

I think about her on the road
And say "it's fine when it's just me"
They were so kind over in Oklahoma
I could have stayed in New Orleans

She'll be hanging out with friends
I'm in a hotel room alone
Tomorrow there's another wedding
We'll talk right after on the phone
And she'll say

Time it stops for no man
So be careful what you do
Love as well as you can
While you still have somebody loving you

If you find that the golden shore
That you've been aiming your whole life toward
Is darker than you'd expected
If you grow tired of all your running
Drifter please return to us and
Settle down, settle in

Cause time it stops for no man
So be careful where you roam
Love as well as you can
While you still have someone to call you home
 

Collapse

Everything keeps drifting further
As existence folds its edges away
We're just floating in space
More lost and alone with each orbit we make

The stars will keep exploding
If people keep on noticing
They will burn themselves out
Dying for lovers, they will fall to the ground

What if nothing really matters?
We could count the rings of saturn
Life is still a black hole
More undiscovered, with each new thing that we know

Everyone keeps drifting further
All existence hinges on a perhaps
And the sun will collapse
All that we know will someday just slip through the cracks

 

Macaroni Song

I've got a hundred dollars and a mattress on the floor
I could make you macaroni we could eat it on the porch
I'll play you a song on a guitar I can't afford
I'll be with you for better, I'll be with you for poor

Cause baby I really want to take care of you
I know you didn't ask me to
And you've got everything you need
Tell me what's a bunch of money really gonna do
I'd love you under any roof
And we'd have everything
If You could have some diamonds and a mansion on the beach
Marry some lawyer with perfect hair and teeth
You could do better mathematically
You can buy what makes you happy, but you'll be happier with me


Cause baby I really want to take care of you
I know you didn't ask me to
And you've got everything you need
Tell me what's a bunch of money really gonna do
I'd love you under any roof
And we'd have everything
 

 

I don't love you anymore

If you ever here this song

Don't bother writing me I'm gone
Over mountains far away, is where I'm sure I'm gonna stay
Never giving you a first or second thought
Tell your parents what you want

Let them know I've hated god
Over mountains far away, I'll never let you let me change
Vulgar as I am you're wrong
Every time I hear your name

You consume me with such gentle shame
Over mountains where I'm safe, from your kisses from your blame
Understand me when I say

After months without a call
Now you say it's not my fault
You protect your pretty face, from the world and from me
Maybe I'm just glad you're gone
Over mountains far away, I'll never let you let me change
Really I'm just scared that I'd become
Everything you said you'd want

[I don't love you anymore, and maybe I just never did]

 

Alive

We could drive to the beach
Park your car by the sea
We could dive to the deep
Where the jellyfish sing, and they'll sing

I'm alive

We could park underneath
The branches of a redwood tree
Dance to a woodpecker beat
Hum along with the birds and the bees, and they'll sing

I'm Alive

We could fly to the moon
Mars and jupiter too
The rings of saturn in view
We'll hum an alien tune, and it'll go

We're alive


Montauk

 

When the fog lifted, we saw the snow and ice
Our boat started rocking in the waves, on toward the light
My baby took my hand she said "I'm too young, and I'm too scared to die"
But baby, that's why I brought you all this way, see I'm afraid of life

So I wrapped her arms and legs
With the anchor and the chain
And I threw her in the bay
I turned and sailed away
I felt nothing as she sank

 



SISTER IV (The more we find)

Is there a key for every door
Would that make your world seem smaller
Every bottle washed up on the shore
Turns the ocean into watercolor

Did that redwood forest floor
Make your time feel so much shorter
I don't think I've ever cared about you more
When you said "does all this really matter?"

Whichever sleeping star you lay your head under tonight
Just look up and remember they're all dying
Don't you dare pretend like you can always see the light
The more we find, the less we understand
Just live your life and love whatever you can

Is there a map for every trail
Would that keep you from your worry
Maybe it's just in our blood to try, and fail
Sister let yourself be sorry


Whichever sleeping star you lay your head under tonight
Just look up and remember they're all dying
Don't you dare pretend like you can always see the light
The more we find, the less we understand
Just live your life and love whatever you can

If everything's supposed to end up good
God's not listening or he misunderstood
The times I begged that this would pass our way
He took when he should have gave

Whichever sleeping star you lay your head under tonight
Just look up and remember we're all dying
Don't you dare pretend like you can always see the light
The more we find, the less we understand
Just live your life and love whatever you can



HOspital Hymns

Why did my dog have to up and die
Sweet Lord it wasn't his time
Why are all the good people I know crying
God damn it I'm doing just fine

What is the doctor gonna find
When he drills a hole in my fathers spine
If the cancer doesn't kill you it'll take your pride
Sweet Lord we're all gonna die

I haven't spent any time with you
Singing hospital hymns in the waiting room
I'm the very last one to hear the news
Now there's nothing I could do

Cause death is a friend you can't refuse
Sweet Lord we're coming home soon
Mama I've got holes in all my shoes
Still plenty left to lose

Just read the old book it'll be alright
But the bible never gave me no peace of mind
All my prayer started tasting like little white lies
Everything is gonna be fine
Everything is gonna be fine
Honey, everything is gonna be fine

But women are masters of wasting time
And men rape everything in their sight
Together all we're good for is starting fights
Sweet Lord we're gonna burn in the fire

If this song is my final breath
If I'm killed by the cancer in her breast
Let me give what little I have left
And die an honest death

Doubter's Prayer

Our father who art in heaven
Why are you so far away
Cause I'd trade all my daily bread
For just a chance to hear you explain

What it is you meant when you said
It will be on earth as it is in heaven

Father please forgive me
For doubting the words that you say
It's just that I never felt much of anything
Whenever I've tried to pray

Were you being honest when you said
You would lead me out of temptation

Father yours be the glory
If you even have the strength
To use such a crooked person like me
To do more than damage your name

If your kingdom is really coming in the end
Let me be with you
Though I don't deserve to
Forever and ever, Amen

Corporate Eyes

I've made a decent living off of others addictions
I'm paid in one dollar bills that have seen more than they should
Don't change, call what you're craving nothing but family tradition
I'll stay here till you've had more of her than ever you would

I've seen beautiful girls getting ready for a night on the tease
They seem so unafraid as they undress for corporate eyes
Nineteen, paying for college by showing her body to me
Really I'm no different, I pay my bills under neon lights

I've made a fool of myself on every corner of broadway
I've paid hundreds of travelers compliments I didn't mean
Don't change the thoughts that you think of me I promise I'm being safe
I'll stay here till you've forgotten her, and forgotten me over a drink

I've seen sick-looking girls in their high heels on red carpet aisles
They seem to carry themselves like they know what's waiting off stage
Their dreams to sing pretty songs got them nothing but porcelain smiles
Really I'm no different, the honest belong under neon lights

Everybody wants to give up
Begging for change with a styrofoam cup
Everybody's feeling unloved
So fucking tired of the world we've become

Soft Gentle Brilliant

It's the quiet wind on the water
And the thundering stars up in the sky
The scorching forest fire
And a complex human eye
It's the sound of waves collapsing
Or a newborn's waking cry
The way new seeds float to the ground
Right where the old flowers die

I know you're there
I know you're watching
Though I don't feel you
And I don't live like I want to
You still care
Though Lord I'm prone to wander
I'm hardly listening

It's the red bird's stunning feathers
Or a horses unmatched strength
The way the rockies tower
And the canyons loom at length
There's one-hundred tiny feet
Under a hundred centipede legs
The sun and the moon twirl in a dance
Determining the days

I know you're there
I know you're watching
Though I don't feel you
And I don't live like I want to
You still care
Though Lord I'm prone to wander
I'm hardly listening

It's the way we're warned of winter
By the bloody autumn leaves
How all the ground is connected
By the roots under the trees
Through the violence of human nature
The earth is whispering
Soft, gentle, and Brilliant
Is my maker's love for me

Heaven

Heaven is not a small town
Where everyone you see you already know
Heaven is not some white cloud
Where only rich republicans can go
If Jesus is not accepting
Of cheating spouses or those who think they're gay
Then Jesus when I come knocking
Is gonna turn me away

Cause I'm no better than they are
I've fallen just as far
Why do I judge other's sins
When I'm no different

Heaven is not a grand church
With open doors to those who do good deeds
Heaven is full of curse words
Where violent red blood spills on golden streets
If Jesus is really coming
To rescue everyone who loves him well
Then Jesus when I'm called up
Ought to damn me to hell

I'm wicked and I love the dark
I've doubted in my heart
That God would die so I could live
A life indifferent

Heaven is more like soft wind
A gentle waking breath for tired souls
Heaven is full of children
Who innocently love what they can't know
If Jesus and all his armies
Will come with fire and anger in their eyes
Jesus I'm so sorry for the way I lived my life

He says son be still, welcome home
I've loved you even so


Sister III

Be careful where you plant your feet
Be tasteful when you choose to weep
Be grateful if you fall asleep
Live like you believe in something, in anything

Keep quiet when you want to speak
Keep trying though you're drawn to leave
Keep crying if it brings relief
Try to find some peace in nothing, nothing at all

Are you frightened by the way people tire of the world? 
There's no beauty in the pain, no pity when it hurts
I remember better days don't you? 
I remember better days when we knew only what we needed to know

Be honest when you want to lie
Be modest if you go outside
Be flawless when its time to die
Close your hopeful eyes, and sleep


THE HOLLOW

They told me drink until she's pretty enough
Drink until she's the wine on your tongue
Kiss to forget, sleep when you're dead
Love when you're young and it matters

They told me breathe her like second-hand smoke
Let her stain your hands and seep in your clothes
Dance to remind yourself that you're dying
And honey that I'm no different

Cause we're always waiting to kiss till the sun's down
Never looking into each other's eyes
If you are the hollow then I'll be an echoing sound
If you're darkness I'm drawn to the night

Are we nothing but swings at a park
Just kids making out in the dark
Hiding from war we claim to fight for
One another

You're like fireflies trapped in a jar
You're a prison without any bars
You make me alone
You're soft like a stone
Hitting the water

Cause we're always waiting to kiss till the sun's down
Never looking into each other's eyes
If you are the hollow then I'll be an echoing sound
If you're darkness I'm drawn to the night

Are you still feeling empty tonight?
Are you kissing me so I'll quit asking you
Why you look sad
If you'd want to come back here in the morning

Cause Darlin' I'd kiss you in the broad daylight
Take a long hard look in your eyes
You are the hollow to echo a head full of songs
You're the darkness where I found the light

ROCKING CHAIR

Pull this old rocking chair apart
Arm from arm
Till all its memories are gone

Sell the house I played in as a child
Behind the walls beneath the tile
There's no longer place for us

If home is where your heart is
Home for me does not exist
If love is like a family
I'll spend my days fatherless

Write your name in ink under my skin
Cause the mark you left is permanent
Always fading never gone

For every dollar you should not have spent
There are words that I should not have spent
You're the cussing in my songs

If home is where your heart is
Home for me does not exist
If love is like a family
I'll spend my days fatherless

Pull this old rocking chair apart
Arm from arm
Till all our memories are gone

False Profits

I've spent so much time breathing
Highway air and cigarette ash
That the color of my blood and the air in my lungs is black

Cause I've tried to find the feelings I want
In money and alcohol, tobacco and lust
I think that I would rather die young
Than live to be old and unloved

I've spent too much time counting
Hours and five dollar bills
Those bright neon signs and the lure of the night
Will someday get me killed


Cause I've tried to find the feelings I want
In money and alcohol, tobacco and lust
I think that I would rather die young
Than live to be old and unloved

Life must be more than the car you drive and the house you buy
Life must mean more than the food you eat and the words you speak
And the clothes you wear, the songs you sing
Your child's first breath, and all thats in between

We're chasing false profits, empty lives and pretty coffins
We're chasing false profits

Cause I've tried to find the feelings I want
In money and alcohol, tobacco and lust
I think that I would rather die young
Than live to be old and unloved

Mama's tears

The greatest fears are the ones you never thought you'd ever have
Wasted years, an attic full of wedding photographs
Mama's Tears, and quiver in her voice as she said

Son, don't you dare think you won't be missed when you're gone
But please be strong, please move on

Circles of prayers sent up through gas station cigars
Every puff, a swirl of doubt and anger in my heart
Mama's love, and quiver in her voice as she looked at me and said

Son, don't you dare think you won't be missed when you're gone
But please be strong, please move on

I know next year when winter ends
We'll cycle 'round in cold, wet death
Perhaps the summer sun could mend
The hole my father never meant to leave

Son, don't you dare think you won't be missed when you're gone
But please be strong, please move on

And don't forget Mama's tears

23 Years

Was it the aching of your wrists?
Or just because of your weathered eyes?
Was it the shake in your clenching fist
Or the hollow pass of time?

Was it the aging of her hips?
Or the way that my mother always cried?
Was it the taste of another's lips
For which you put down your fight? 

Had you forgotten her long white dress? 
How pretty she looked coming down the aisle?
You asked her to love you, and she said yes
She loved you like a child

Had you forgotten those long hard days
Coming home to your lover every night
She'd wait for you to step off that train
She's been waiting all her life

Love is getting your hands dirty
Love is bleeding all over each other
Love is sharing the same burdens
Love's not living its dying together

I feel the weight of her broken prayer
23 Years pleading for your life
23 years begging you to care
For your tired and lonely wife